Sunday, October 3, 2010

Breelynn's first 2 weeks

It's crazy to think Breelynn's been with us as a family of 4, for 2 weeks. This has been the life of Breelynn for her first 2 weeks with us.

She has been a great baby! I am not sure we could have asked for a better baby. She just seems to fit right in. She only wakes up once or twice a night, sleeping for 4 hours at a time.

Her schedule is pretty simple thus far. She even had her first outing with us as a family to Hobby Lobby, Target, and The Gap. Sleeping the whole time! I had to wake her up to feed her! On our way home she was awake and didn't even make a peep.

I see you mommy!

Close up

Daddy with his girls.

Look at that chin.


Sleepy mommy and baby.

Her pose

She is always posing like this.

She is so beautiful!

Sleeping in mommy's lap

Look how red she gets!

Sisterly love, again.

So peaceful.

Halloween Decor'

It's no surprise to anyone that I love Halloween! It's my favorite time of the year to decorate for! I even love taking down my decorations after Halloween and putting up my Fall decorations just as such! Must people just straight for their Fall decorations first(booooo) and totally skipping over Halloween decor! Shame!!!

Here's a little peek of our Halloween Decor.

Halloween mantel!

These little guys, were picked up at Hobby Lobby this year for 50% off! These are what I call transition pieces-which means I can use them when I decorate for Fall/Thanksgiving!
My newest addition to my "transition pieces" were a steal I found at TJMaxx! These silver pumpkins were only $7.99 each! Love them!

My Boo sign I made last year!

Out front-we did these last year with the spiders.

My First craft of the Fall-Colleen and I saw these idea in the Martha Stewart Halloween Magazine. It was so simple to make and I just tweaked it a little. I bought a wooden craft wreath, spray painted it black, found some large snakes in the $1 selection at Walmart( I got 2 bright green ones for a little pop of color), floral wired the snakes onto the wreath, and used spray glue and added some glitter to give it a little shine! Voila-DONE!

I picked up some cute pillows from Target for the living room! They are too cute, but I didn't take a picture of them because I forgot!

We've been Boo'd!

I love being Boo'd! I forget about it every year until we open the front door and BOO, there's a surprise package waiting in our front door! It's like receiving an unexcepted package in the mail!

Look how pretty!

The person(s) that Boo'd us, knew we had 2 little girls and there exact sizes and knew that one of my little girls LOVES to color!

"You've been Boo'ed!"

Painting Pumpkins

I love decorating pumpkins! So, we invited the Allen girls from up the street to decorate with us. We bought stickers, glitter, craft paint, glue, ribbon, tulle, etc. and let them at it! They had so much fun. {As did the mom's}

Painting away, her pumpkin looked camo at first.
All the girls in action!

Fun times.

My finished pumpkin!

Blakely's Kitty Cat Pumpkin, my other Boo pumpkin(we did make Breelynn and Daddy one too,
Bree's is pink and green polka dot with her initials and Ben's has a B2 on it.)
The Allen girls finished pumpkins! Its so pretty to drive by their house and see all the pumpkins sparkling!

Time to play!

I love this picture! They are two peas in a pod!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

After Delivery nightmare

***Warning-this is a little detailed and gross!***

Like I said in the earlier post, I had complications after having Breelynn, and I made the decision to make it 'public' and tell my story in hope to maybe help someone else that may go through the same thing, or so I don't have to keep telling the story(over and over-reliving it makes me cringe/cry). Breelynn will one day read this story and know what I went through and how special she is to me.

4 hours after having Breelynn I started to bleed uncontrollably. My blood started to clot in grapefruit sizes and they couldn't figure where the bleeding was coming from. To put it bluntly.

I knew something wasn't right after I had set in the hospital bed and felt myself passing 'large' clots. I asked the nurse to come in and help me to the bathroom and that's when everything soon as I stood up I could feel the clots start coming out. Once I got the bathroom the grapefruit size clots continued. The nurse started pushing on my belly and things just got worse from there. I started to panic at this point and asked the nurse if this was normal and if I was going to be okay! She looked at me at one point and says, "Ok, I am going to be honest with you, this isn't normal, but we are going to figure this out."

Yea- I started to shake and freak out at this point. They put me back on the bed called in more nurses and the Doctor(which mine came in on Friday night, she wasn't even on call, thank God-as soon as I saw her I started to cry and thanked her for coming in on her weekend off) and started to work on me, trying to find the source of the bleeding.

I never stopped shaking (uncontrollably) for the 2 hours they searched for the source of bleeding. I basically had my inside searched and cervix turned over! At this point I had lost so much blood that I could feel myself getting weak.

They thought maybe it could have been some of the placenta left inside, but they couldn't find anything. Then they thought my cervix could have torn, but once they check it over and over, finding nothing. Then they started talking about taking me into the O.R. and I basically lost it, begging them not too! I actually said, "Please don't take me to the OR!!!"

The Doctor said the blood had to atleast slow down, so they gave me medicine in a very uncomfortable place to help slow the bleeding. It seems to work after 2 hours, but they wanted me to watch me closely because I had lost so much blood. If my blood count didn't come back up( was at a 7-normal people count is at 13), they wanted to do a blood transfusion. Ofcourse, I didn't want a transfusion! Are you kidding me!?!?! So they placed me on iron pills(which I am still on), gave me more meds to stop the bleeding, and watched/woke me up every 3 hours all night and the next day. I should of been able to go home on Saturday, but they didn't want me to go home quiet yet because all my counts where still low and I wasn't still feeling like myself yet.

After all night of bleeding I only passed a few more clots that were golf ball size-which is normal and I should have done in the first place.

They never actually figured out, for sure, what caused all the bleeding, but they had an idea.
I was really only in active labor for 3 hours and pushed Breelynn out so fast that my body wasn't able to discard all the blood it needed too, so it started to clot on my cervix. I got my last dose of my epidural so late, so I couldn't move or walk for a longer period of time after the delivery. Making all the blood to clot.

I am still not myself...I can still feel the side-effects of all the blood loss and they have me on a bunch of medicine(still-ugh) to help rebuild my blood count and help heal everything 'down there' because with them working on me, made my healing process a little(a lot) harder!

I will say, I have had nightmares about the whole thing and still can't get the images of all the blood out of my head. I just never thought something like this would happen to me and honestly I kept telling Ben if something happened to me, take care of my girls. I was scared shitless!

I hope this wasn't to graphic, but I did want people to know what happened and know that even in a situation where you think the worst, trust in your caretakers and in the Lord that everything will be okay. I will say I kept asking, out loud, for God to please take care of me and watch over me through everything. He did and I am grateful. Thank you to Ben who stayed by my side-even though he can't stand blood and all that 'gross' stuff. He was strong for me when I was weak. He kept looking in my eyes, telling me everything was going to be alright.

Close ups

Breelynn looks like her Daddy to me! And everyone that sees her says the same thing. Actually, that's the first thing out of their mouth. And ofcourse, that makes me happy since I think he is so freaking handsome! :)

She looks like Blakely!

She was 'kissed' by the stork 3 times! One in the middle of her eyebrows, one her eye, and the other above her lip. She is extra special, wonder what God has in store for her.

I just can't stop straying at her! My World is complete!

Face of an angel!

We were showing off all the hair she has! Not much to most people, but I was bald until like 2 years old!

Sisterly love

Blakely has been the best big sister a we could have asked for!
We knew she was super excited about having a baby sister, but we were not excepting her to be so helpful, loving, or as happy about having her sister around!
She wants to hold her all the time! She wants me to not breastfeed, so she can give her a bottle! She wants to kiss her head every 10 minutes! She wants to help give her a bath every night. She wants to help change her daipers(but will not touch the dirty ones or throw them away). Etc.
These pictures are all out if order, but I want to show you how much she holds her and it's not just a few's like 10/15/20 minute time frames.
So happy to hold 'sissy' after "dinner".

Kisses for sissy

She likes to hold her like the adults do up on her shoulder.

This is how she sat with her for 10 minutes, just holding her head like this.

The day we left the hospital...

Second day in happy to be with her!

Us girls...Daddy's going to have his hands full!

Talking about how cute her hat is...

This was the first time Breelynn had her eyes open and was looking at Blakely. Amazing!